Without Jesus, I am nothing…

Today is the 4th day of CNY, but i have to study. my 1st class is TMX2012 IT tools….. about computer… those know me well will notice that i did really worst works in all the IT or electric & electronic things…. i Love IT, but IT dont like me wo…. So hard for me to approach the always Up-dated IT tools and information. I think i only master watever needed for my academic purpose is enough le. emm, like microsoft work, excel, p.point, access, front page; how to online, how to print, how to add frens ald la….

I always tell my frens, human brain ald not finish study, but we have to study the "electronic brain" also + bla bla bla…..

Luckily my lecturer, en. M is so nice and humour. The way he teach is interesting and i quite enjoy his class but sure NOT the TMX2012!!!

So, now and here, at my faculty (T_T so sad, have to study…) wish all my not-even-coming-back-to-unimas’s frens like Sco.., Q.Fo.., Lala, S.Bi.., Mi..2… a very Happy Chinese New Year!!! hmg… we all waiting for u!!!

**** for those too nice and read this post and noticed that their name is after the not-even-coming-back-to-unimas’s frens, pls prepare a letter for today’s TMX class and state the reason u ABSENT!!!

the 1st & 2nd day of CNY i went back my grandma’s house… most of my relatives ald arrived. I really feel warm when meet them, especially my grandma. she is still cute and caring… sometime quite over-caring!!! chang 2 qi 4…. ^_^

CNY really best!!! Yeah… i Luv Cny Soooooooooooo much.

+++++ got angpau(s) hahahahaha….

^_^ haha, so fast, tomorrow is CNY le… can see my relatives… especially my grandma… :p

emm, my sister sit beside me again…. oh oh… @_@ nvm la….

^_^ CNY is so meaningful to chinese… it is a sign of unity and gathering. so, all the family members have to gather at the CNY eve to join the dinner that represent the unity and caring among them…

as usual, my CNY eve is having steamboat!!! it is the best way to keep all the family members together more longer time. so great!!! lots of delicious foods…. yummy yummy!!!

To all the Chinese frens: hApPy cHiNeSe NeW yEaR

wish u all the best this year.

A short meet for about three hours (is it short ? for me ya, it is too short…) all of us 7 peoples talk and sharing… so happy… this is really a relax time for us… without homework and tomorrow morning early class… just feel free to talk and sharing among frens…

Long time din see them, so feel like lot of thing want to share. some of them are frens since young while some of them are junior. we all having fun. i really enjoy the moment we all laugh together…

Fren is one of the "place" we can gain energy and support for our whole-life journey toward success… sometime, just simply talk, borak and say nothing among us, i can really feel happy and relax… relax becos i am familiar with them and i enjoy the time with all my frens. with my frens, there will be no cheating, masking, acting…

A sweet night and thank you to all my frens…

* lezheng, u are getting mature and mature le… ald charm o… dont forget to show me my sister in law one day…

*kok wai, so glad can meet u b4 i left. u are still handsome and keep ur smile on face!!! + u lo…

*weng sum, u are so special, really… creative and so funny… keep in touch… forgot to bring u the present le… hehehehehe… next time la…

*all the juniors, wish u guys all the best and can get good result for the STPM. better u all come to UNIMAs la… be the only one serdangian here is so bored!!! good luck in choosing suitable and loving course.

So regret wrote the blog before on title : behind karen. A lot of people ask me a lot of things about my experiences regarding the title… I really ok le… just need some time to recover. don worry about me… me now at my house is very happy and enjoy!!!

Today my nephew go back to his mother’s house le… today is the last day i see him… next time see him is the next semester break among April and June. Really will very miss him…

Hahahahahaha…. just now help my mother to fried "ya 2 gu 1" (the number is the sound for the han yu pin yin)… So funny… really have a great time to stay with my cute and caring mother… in addition, my piggy sister (dont blame me for calling she piggy, coz she also call fat pig pig… ) emm…. how to say….? she cut the ya2 gu1 together with the head of ya2 gu1!!!! professional one will able to left the "perfect head"… perfect head helps in simplify the fried process… so hard to explain la… Shortly, she is really a cute, fat, and "innocent" piggy sister!!! love her so much!!!! Muahhhh!!!

She is sitting beside me now… so bored la… let her see this blog b4 published. no more surprised!!! in addtion, she like to bla bla bla bla beside… ald have the characteristic of aunty!!!!!!! so unbelievable!!! What? unbelievable? Y mooon seldom talk? she so silent? no la, she just shy… that is not the real her…. so, believe it!!!!!! emmm, if u know her well, u will agree with me… she is so talkative to those she know and familiar…. she is kind la actually…

today is HAppy!!!!

^_^ have 2 be happy… am i right? Suddenly remember the song sang by Fish Leong… the meaning is like: "the valentines day is coming but left only u, however, actually, if u are with the right person, everyday are valentines day…" emmm… quite good!

I found that busy can help someone forget something bad… really work! So, today, i will be very very busy…

At the end, wish all the people in this world Happy valentines day!!! enjoy urs day with significant others…

11th Feb 2007, 17:00 i arrived LCCT… i am arrived  Selangor… my first feeling is happy cos can see JcTan again… He is still the same, still cute, chubby, talkative, fat-fat…

On the way go back, he getting so close to me really touching me… He is who i most missing one. The way he talk, laugh, play help in taking away my worry and sadness… so glad can see him…

During dinner, my father really take care to me like pass me a lot of duck meat, vegi, soup and ask me to eat more… It is the way my father showed his love to me… although he didn’t speak out.

My father is involved in an accident the day b4 i come back. So ngam, the guy who langgar my father is my sister’s fren’s brother… He is so careless. He said he didn’t saw my father, but finally he said he did not really slow down when he arrived the junction… my father fell down and injured. Today when i saw him, i really worry about him because his knee, face, arm are injured. Not so serious but he did feels pain. Imagine, he has to ‘climb’ the 4th floor stairs although he is feeling not good…

Really want to buy my parent a rumah deres… at least, they do not have to climb the stairs… sometimes, i saw them really very tired after arrived the door… I want to buy them the house but don know when this dream comes true. After my 4 years study?

My frenz know me as someone optimistic… ya, i am; but sometimes i really down. I really want to show my happy face in front of all my significant other… even I hav bad mood, i dont want them to know how sad i am … They might think i feel unsatisfy to something but they dont know i sad for my own problems.

Now almost every night i cry before sleep… I dont know why i cant control my feeling… it might because i so good in linking my life with my sad experiences. Not because of life in unimas but the feeling i underwent b4…

wondered know why human being so forgetful about their promises?

wondered know why human being so cruetly in dealing with feeling?

wondered know why human being so sudden in changing their mind?

The nearer the 14th Feb, The harder for me to control my feeling… I only can cool down when i am busy… assignment, with frens….

Will go back serdang soon… Why overlap with 14th feb? How if i meet him? what is the best way for me to face him?