Without Jesus, I am nothing…

In my favourite book entitled ‘if you really want to beat stress’, the authors asked ‘ why you want to be a copy since you are an original?’ Yes, it is true! Everyone is so unique and is the only mastercopy in this world. However, some people want to imitate other people until they lost themselves… How pity…..

I am so happy because I am who I am… When i were young, my eldest sister was my model… I like to imitate her in my life… studying, eating habit, attire, the way speaking, school activities and social activities… Could you imagine a 12 years old little girl (not the size but the mental age) follows her 17 years old sisters went out to Yam char with her same age frens? ^_^ Is a funny scene… a little girl in the big group of 17 year-old sisters and brothers  in school… Haha…

When i grew up, i found myself were lost…. I am not sure whether you can imagine the feeling of losting oneself or not… Erm, the feeling is like ‘ who am I?’ ; ‘am i the I?’ ; ‘Where were the I gone?’… no place to seek for, no place to ask for…. Lost… I am not going to use the example likes ‘lost in jungle’ or ‘lost in the middle of the sea’ because i never experienced those. Frankly, it was scary and i could not find a space for Myself… Where am I?

In my age of 14, i start to ‘find’ myself… sound crazy… right? Hahaha… yes, It was crazy… I have tried my best to perform in academic; i have tried my best to identify my favourite and dislike things; I have tried to walk out from the shadow of my eldest sister…. You all might dont know, she is so clever for me… The way she mix around with frens and her style was so charming… Anyway, now I have my own way… Haha…

It was a tough time for me to walk away from the shadow of my eldest sister… I learned, tried, find myself for a very long time… Now, i will say, I am happy because I am who I am… I have my own point of view that might be different with my eldest sister; I have my own style tat definitely unique;  and I am no more a person who similar to her shadow… i am not her copy… Release…… and relief….. from the feeling of lost and frustration…

so, take times to think about it…. ‘ why you want to be a copy since you are an original?‘ Valuing urself and appreciating wat u have in u; both external and internal assets… Be proud of yourself doesn’t mean u r narcissism (self-love)… Be proud of urself for your own quality and be happy for you are who you are… 请支持正版[please support the original]…. ^.^